No Normal Life

I’m seventeen and I don’t know how to drive a car. Every time I see two parents talking to one another without screaming, I gaze in awe. I haven’t gone to Prom and I doubt that I will.

Sometimes I wonder how my childhood would have been if not for my mom. What would it have been like to grow up in an environment entrenched in caring as opposed to cruelty? Which friends might I have met, who might have I turned out to be, what might I have done? With only a few months left before my eighteenth birthday, every chance I have to experience an average life is slipping away.

To Tumblr, Or Not To Tumblr…

People say peer pressure can be positive.

At the moment, I refute that – because my friend made me make this.

There comes a point in life when you have to stop and smell the amount of social networking sites you have. Yahoo. Gmail. Facebook. Twitter. Goodreads. WordPress. And now, Tumblr.

Obviously I use some of these more than others.

300 Posts, 300,000 Views, and a 3-Day Weekend – Huzzah!

So this is one of those spontaneous late-night Friday dear diary posts about nothing in particular.

What I’m currently reading for my school’s book club! Probably won’t post a review because I read it a couple of years ago, but will edit my thoughts on Goodreads.

First off, a big thank you to all of my readers/followers/commenters/creepers/friends/miscellaneous individuals – a week ago this blog reached 300,000 views, and today I am publishing my 300th post. As I always say, I probably wouldn’t post as regularly if not for the encouragement I receive and the really great feedback I get from you guys. Even the feedback from the people who don’t comment, because I can totally discern your disgust love for this blog. I want to start thanking the people who visit this site and promote the site more by doing book giveaways, but I am not the most knowledgeable of all the procedures involved – perhaps I will make one after first semester is finished.

Now, because I do have Monday off from school and I have a little time to talk/write about random stuff, here’s a list of things that have been going on that aren’t emotionally captivating and beautiful enough to be turned into full posts.

If I Fall

What are you most afraid of?

A question that kept me up late last night, staring at the ceiling. A question a friend asked me over dinner last night, amidst casual conversation and delicious cheesecake. A question that, while seemingly innocuous, instigated more thought than I thought it would.

I’m Actually Busy? And Shakespeare’s “Sonnet 116”

This is a filler update on my life. Lately, I’ve been extraordinarily occupied with tennis, homework, exams, SAT prep, AP test prep, volunteering, searching for a job, etc. It’s sad to see my reading time/time wasted ogling researching Key decrease to the point where I can’t even post regularly like I have been. Therefore, I thought that this random post was necessary.

A few days ago we were going over Shakespearean poetry in English class. This particular sonnet struck my fancy, or, as normal people would say, I took a liking to it. It really brings out the romantic in me, which has been missing lately due to an increased amount of cynicism (life is pointless. ha ha. just kidding):

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

–  “Sonnet 116”, William Shakespeare.

Love it. The way Shakespeare forms complex and meaningful thoughts in such a beautiful way with a set structure is just superb. I hope one day to experience a love of this depth and nature – I guess that’s one of the things that makes life worth living.

Anyway, I hope everyone is having a great week! I updated my contact information so people can send me messages through a form instead of going through the hassle of trying to reach me through Goodreads. Send me something nice, if you know what I mean (;